You've been trying to throw your arms Around the world You've been falling off the sidewalk Your lips move but you can't talk Tryin' to throw your arms around the world

OH MY GOD I'M A JUNIOR!

I'm not sure how to deal with that. I couldn't wait till I was done with exams this semester and on to better things that the summer might bring but LORD - a junior! That means that there are there are technically only two more years to my acedemic career left. JeSUS! I'm not sure how to take that. One the one hand, I'm really pleased with how this year has progressed, the people I've met, the friends I've made, the person I've become. I'm looking forward to the next year and all that it will bring. BUT THEN...that means that I ONLY HAVE TWO YEARS LEFT! Two years to get my life into shape...two years to figure out what I'm going to do with my career...two years to find someone that will bring out the best of what is hiding up my sleeve.

I don't know...I still don't have a minor and while that isn't EVERYTHING...I keep hearing the familiar, "What? You DON'T have a minor???" Yeah I don't, OK? F off why don't you.

Then I think that maybe I'll minor in fine arts because I'm actually not so bad at it - and it brings me joy - but it just seems like such a waste. I know that I'm not going to be an artist, I'm not going to go into art therapy most likely. Damn...and somehow I manage to COMPLETELY relate my life to Felicity and all her changes in the relm of PreMed. (I know, I'm pathetic.)

I don't know....it's just kind of frightening to think how two years of college could have slipped through my fingertips in what seems like a couple of months. Just makes me a little bit nervous.

I do want to jump into that "real world" and most of the time I wish I could just ditch college all together and find a job and get down to the heart of the matter. But it doesn't really work that way.

Somehow I feel like my life will be reduced to me, being a professional student for a while, and then ending up in a low-paying therapist type job that I'll probably end up wanting to run from when I'm 40 or so.

Or not...I don't know...I just want to be able to maximize my knowledge, my talents, my youth somehow.

Any suggestions?