I am so emotional lately. I guess that's normal, considering all the changes that will soon be taking place in my life. Although at times I feel as if I'm just a passenger, along for the ride.

Everytime I think I know what I want, my mind seems to change and I become unsure all over again. That, or I know what I want, but cannot have it because of numerous obstacles.

I recently went out on a date with this very nice guy, at this point he seems to have potential to be everything that I want in a man, but yet I have no desire to call him back. Why is that? Why would I willingly turn away this opportunity at a potential boyfriend. I bitch about it so much, you'd think I'd jump at the chance. Is it because he's not a Brat Pitt clone? Is it because he seems a little too nice, maybe a little off?

Really, I don't know. It's pissing me off and maybe it's just that I'm not used to this sort of thing but I wish that I could just make up my mind.

It feels as if plans are being made all around me and I'm not being included in the mix. It's making me a little uneasy, but there's not much I can do until I figure out my own plans. I know that what I should really do is just wait, focus on the here and now, and not get so wrapped up in the anxiety of the future.

...one foot in front of the other...