But I'm not going to break and I'm not going to worry about it anymore
I'm not going to bend, and I'm not going to break and I'm not going to worry about it anymore - Counting Crows

...and it's true.

For some reason, I have a new sense of freedom, a new lease on life - I don't care what happens anymore. I'm so young and fresh and untainted by it all that I've decided to forego spending all my time worrying about the consequences and end result of all of my actions, and rather focus on the moment - the here and now.

Yea yea, I know it sounds lame, but fo' real - that's going to be my new philosophy. I am going to get what I want out of life without pussyfooting around the edges waiting for something to happen.

I will study my ass of in short intervals (so I don't feel like I'm wasting my time or turn to procrastination).
I will go out when I please, stay in when my body and mind needs a break, and not feel bad about either choice.
I will let go with strangers and friends and everything in between and STOP censoring myself so much. I'm better than that and people really do deserve to know the root of me and not some faded cover story that more easily blends in with the background.
I will get back into artsy activities and reading and the outdoors.

Blah blah blah...not like you all care what I'm going to do make my life more enjoyable - I'm sure the drama and emotional turmoil are much more entertaining to read...but screw that, I'm SO over drama these days.

I am not worried
I am not overly concerned