I hate to be pessimistic here, but sometimes, life just seems to deal people more than their fair share.

And for once, I'm not complaining about events that have happened to me personally, but rather to those I know and love or those in my sphere of contact. Some, after all they've been through and recovered from, are thrown yet another heartache to grapple with. I listen and stand by, but as much as I wish to the contrary, there's nothing I or they can actually do to change much of the situation. Life is just like that sometimes. Things happen that are out of our power and we just have to sort of take it as they come and make do, as hard as that may be.

There are others who seem to have so much potential and ability, yet choose not to use it or share it for the benefit of others. While they too have their own hardships to deal with, they choose not to try and make the better of the situation and instead retreat to something that is comfortable and familiar. They'd rather remain small and scared in their rigid boundries and focus on whatever their immediate concern may be, not attempting to breach the circle of comfort to reach out to others. I fight the urge try to change them. I know that I'm mostly dissapointed in the way I've misjudged them.

I know some of such mechanisms can be ascribed to learned coping skills. I suppose I just find it hard to watch people, who clearly realize what their limitations may be, do nothing to try to change the patterns. It takes effort, and can be hard, but really in the end it's usually worth the time and effort. I know I have limitations and "issues" but most days I make the conscious choice to work on them so that I can be a more productive individual of society and share my life with someone else who shares similar values and holds similar beliefs. And I pride myself on my sense of judgement and reading of other people, which is why it's so hard when the dissapointment hits from realizing that I had the wrong impression of a person altogether. When I've had them pegged as one type of individual, but their actions and character clearly attest to something entirely different.

We can't have things they way we want them all the time, and not everyone is going to do things just as we'd like. And as much as I've struggled with the idea of just having to deal with whatever life, fate, karma - whatever you want to call it - throws at you, in most cases it's true. Just appears like some are more than due for their break...