I'm not like the girls that you've known
But I believe I'm worth coming home to
Kiss away night
This girl only sleeps with butterflies
With butterflies
So go on and fly then boy

When you put two completely emotionally inarticulate and guarded people together it really causes a great big mess. Maybe not a mess really, but rather a long, awkward conversation that results with really no ending. And I'm sure that a lot of it is me, and my lack of directness - he says that I should get out of nursing while I can and just become a diplomat. Apparently I have quite the skill at so abstractly talking around things that are inherently intimate.

In the end, we were able to at least get out the sentences that this was going to be an "exclusive thing". I'm still not putting a label on it, no matter how much one of my roomates likes to do that or everyone asks me if we're "like, together now". Because, really, what does it matter. I'm having fun and laughing and discovering layers of someone. I suppose then I shouldn't fret about calling him my boyfriend either in that case, but somehow, I'm just not ready for that yet....

Are you having regrets about last night
I'm not but I like rivers that rush in
So then I dove in
Is there trouble ahead
For you the acrobat
I won't push you unless you have a net

And while the differences and the distance between the two worlds that we seem to live in have never been an issue, I don't want to push all that away so far that I forget who I am and fall into a way of things that I've tried to avoid in the past. Time will tell, just have to keep my eyes open for a little while longer at least.

Balloons
Look good from on the ground
I fear with pins and needles around
We may fall then stumble
Upon a carousel
It could take us anywhere - Tori Amos

Sidenote: Tori's doing a booksigning at BU on the 18th and playing at the Orpheum! Yay! I'm SO going to go!